Saturday, 13 September 2008
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Lonely, i am so lonely...
It's true, the last week has been really tough... Massive amount of assignments to complete (which is fine, no problem with me) but no thanks to some "great" situation I am in, I screwed up badly in the past week.
Stress doesn't normally get to me that well. But when "THIS" situation arises, I just can't take it anymore! Argh.... It's particularly lonely, lonesome I suppose, when you lose touch with people (close friends especially) just because of this reason. I question this cause, I really do question if this is what I am meant to do, because it is frustrating. But I believe that it would turn out for good, I really hope and pray that it would. So hard sometimes though...
Well, anyway. That's just life.
Tough times reminds you of the great times you had. Last Thursday, I decided to skip ICF for a break (quite sure I missed a great lesson on Daniel though). I thought about home all of a sudden. Hah. Thursday nights were usually pasar malam nights, the time when we would go to the night market to get some great food, have a relaxing stroll and just take some time off. You really don't appreciate all these things until you don't get them anymore.
And then just now, I was reading the archives on the pioneers blog. Haha. The memories! Good, good memories. Started of with the 3rd Kajang visit, check out the pics, great joke! =) And then to Pesta 06 and Cambodia. Of course, not forgetting all the lessons imparted and wise words shared, such a big chunk of really good things to be picked up. I found it really encouraging. Well, that's the good thing of being part of such a life-changing ministry. I think I really should have done better in keeping touch though. Hmm.. it is true, I am really bad at this and I should really try to improve on maintaining my friendships. Really bad.
Anyway, there were other things I've thought about as well. Of course, of course. Such things are left to the past.
It seems that this is just a normal part of life. Life is meant to be experienced to the full: both happiness and sadness. And when it comes, we just have to learn to cope with it, to face it and to move on (easier said than done of course). But to Him who holds my life in the palms of His hands, thank You for giving me the break I don't deserve this time round and the confidence that You are still in control!
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hey... decided to pop in here after a long time =) i noe wat ur going through right now...stay strong. I have faith in you..if there's anything..im only a phone/ msg away..take care zheng..will pray for u =)
hey there,
Indeed, looking back at past pictures of our days does brig back a whole lot of memories huh... It's different now, back here in 2sj... One whole cycle has just gone by, us, we're now history in the senior section... Many have left, some stayed... Hope you will come back as a leader next time... Next year, josef and my self n some of the other older ex members (the real pioneers of BB2SJ, people who had been with the company from the very begining) are planning a trip, maybe to langkawi (duty free booze) or something.... Do join us la, during middle of next year... Would be real good catching up for many of us... We just had one before Jo left for the US, was really good la... Good to see that you still am blogging, your blog was damn dead at one time, when the background was yellow in colour... anyways, you take care there k... God bless...
benben
hey there,
Indeed, looking back at past pictures of our days does brig back a whole lot of memories huh... It's different now, back here in 2sj... One whole cycle has just gone by, us, we're now history in the senior section... Many have left, some stayed... Hope you will come back as a leader next time... Next year, josef and my self n some of the other older ex members (the real pioneers of BB2SJ, people who had been with the company from the very begining) are planning a trip, maybe to langkawi (duty free booze) or something.... Do join us la, during middle of next year... Would be real good catching up for many of us... We just had one before Jo left for the US, was really good la... Good to see that you still am blogging, your blog was damn dead at one time, when the background was yellow in colour... anyways, you take care there k... God bless...
benben